Decision Time!

Well, Tuesday we (my dad, brother, three doctors, and me) had a meeting with the doctors that are treating my mom. My brother, dad, and I were there. Not so good news. We were told today that we are coming to the time were we will have to make the decision to have them put in a tracheotomy tube so she can have a more permanent way of breathing. Also, we made a family decision not to resuscitate her if she codes or has a heart attack. That way we feel that she will go more naturally. Then we don't feel guilty if we make the decision of not doing the tracheotomy. And if they do that procedure, they will also put a feeding tube in her belly. The doctors also said that if she would recover. She won't be the same as what we remember. So we are fighting with the fact that she might not know we are there, or what is going on. Like we aren't sure if she knows we are there or not.

So we are having another meeting on Friday with the doctors to give them our decision. Of what way we want to go. See if they keep the ventilator tube in, then that could damage her vocal cords. We are thinking of not doing the procedure because we are starting to really think of what she would want if she could talk. And honestly. She doesn't want to be put on life support, and she doesn't want to live if she isn't going to be herself. Like she doesn't want to be a vegetable. Which is what she might be. Not full blown, but not a good quality of life. We are all thinking the same. We talked as a family after the doctors left. And said that none of us want my mom to suffer.

Yesterday she had a Cat-scan done and no change stroke wise. Friday before we meet again (my dad, brother, me, and three doctors) we will have the results from her MRI that they are doing that morning.

So please for us. As we need guidance, strength, and comfort in what decision we make. Thank you everyone for your support, prayers, and kind words. It will still be an emotional draining time for me which ever way we go. So please bare with me.

Will update tomorrow on what we decide. Stay in touch!

Jodes