Thursday, November 26, 2009

Thanksgiving Trekkers 2010 and Mom's headstone!!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Ryan and I walked today with my aunt's Jill and Patti, Uncle Rick, cousin's Rachel, Lauren, and Troy. The other walkers were friends of my Aunt Jill's sister Lynn. My aunt Jill's sister Lynn was their with her daughter Cori, along with Cori's family. We walked from the trail over by Evergreen Drive and Ballard (by Shopko Express) to French Road and back. Pfew it was long, but I DID IT! So proud of myself, and Ryan was also. Granted I was bringing up the rear, but at least I finished it and didn't peter out. I walked my pace and that was fine with me.

Now onto after the walk. Ryan and I went to Saint Edward's Cemetary to see my mom's headstone. First off! Is it headstone or gravestone? My dad and I aren't really sure. Anyway's, Ryan and I were extremely impressed with what my dad had picked out. Yes I took pictures to share. I only took 5 or 6 pictures. It was cold in the wind. So enjoy the pics!


View of the whole gravesite. Yes that is a tree that is by her. I think that was pretty cool. She has a shade tree, cuz she was always hot.
Better view of the "In Loving Memory" stone that was in one of the plants we got. My dad fashioned the stand for it.


View of the whole headstone headstone.


View of just the headstone.


The "In Loving Memory" plaque and the other plaque that we have no clue were it came from. Not sure who put it there. My family isn't saying.


The wood cross that my grandma painted for the grave marker. My uncle cut out the cross for her as well.


Close-up view of the headstone. Name and dates, with view of the cross.

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!
Jodes

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

2nd Annual Turkey Trekkers!!

I am walking with my aunt Jill's family in this one this year. Money that was raised goes to the Harbor House, food donations go to the Food Pantry, and they also adopted a family at Harbor House also. It is all going to be in the name of my aunt Jill's brother Jim who passed away about a month or two ago, and in memory of my mom as well. The walk is at 8am. I am attaching the file.

2nd ANNUAL THANKSGIVING TREKKERS

WHEN: THANKSGIVING DAY 8AM
WHERE: (same trail as last year)parking by the Shopko Express on evergreen and French Rd.

Cash donations will go to Harbor House
Non perishable food donations will go to St. Joe’s Pantry
Come join us for some fresh air before the big feast!!!!!

Jodes

So much to be thankful for!!

This year, like years past I am so very thankful for everything God has blessed me with. Instead of saying in sentences what I am thankful for, I am going to make a list. To me that is so much easier. So here it s.

1)My belief in God
2)My health
3)My family (that includes Ryan and his family also)
4)My amazing friends(friends at church, from college, and friends from Ryan's work)
5)My mom
6)My tremendous support system
7)The air I breath (I know weird, but I am thankful for that since 3 yrs ago I had issues breathing)
8)The many abilities God has given me to demonstrate his AMAZING love
9)My kind nature, abiility to be a good listener, and friendly personality
10)The smile that God gave me to cheer people up

So this is my brief list of what I am thankful for this year. Yes number 5 is what I am thankful for, but that is also what I feel is missing.

A brief look into how we used to spend Turkey Day when she was home and not sick. We would watch the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade, among the other parades that were on. Then I would also make what we needed to bring to my grandma's for Thaksgiving Day celebration at her place. We would get up there, and then have good fellowship with family, eat great food, watch FOOTBALL, and then make new memories. Granted this isn't the first Holiday without her. We did have Easter with her being gone this year. That was actually okay. Ryan's parents were up here and they kept us busy. Ryan's mom and I went shopping, and the boys did their annual trip to Fleet and Scheels. But we had fun and that was good. I needed it.

Granted I miss my mom a bunch, wish I could just talk to her and have her talk back to me, give her a hug, and just plain 'ol just see her. I am fine. I can talk about her death now, and use the word death more now than passing. And I am not crying as I type this. The only time I cry, when talking about my mom's death is when I need to talk to Ryan about it. That is the only time I cry. Unless at church it is All Saint's Day, no songs are played from her funeral or the one's that she liked. I am fine at church then. I bring kleenex with me for that just in case moment.

Well, my mom's headstone is down by her grave. I won't be seeing today, but I will ask Ryan tomorrow if we can do it together. Since I am not quite ready to go down there by myself and see it. At least not the first time. I will take my camera with me, so you all can see it also. It should look pretty cool. But I will have a picture to prove it and you guys can decide. Well, not sure if I will blog tomorrow or Friday. So either way I will have a pic up of her gravestone.

Happy Thanksgiving all! Have safe travels to where ever you are going if you are going anywhere. Tomorrow is walk at 8am with my family (will post the flyer in another blog shortly), change clothes, go to Ryan's watch the parade (if I can convince Ryan too), watch the Packer game with Ryan and a friend, and then go to my grams for Thanksgiving Dinner with a butt load of food (not weight watchers friendly but I will try to practice portion control) and punch.

Jodes

Friday, November 20, 2009

My health rollercoaster!!

Man what a week. Let's see were to start? Well, let's start form the beginning. Monday I had my routine labs done, and then took my frist solo trip to my Green Bay Transplant Clinic appointment. It took me like 30 minutes to get there. I only had to sit for maybe only 5 minutes to get in and to weigh-in and then get my vital signs checked. After that my PA came in and she had me lay on the table to look at were my kidney is, and to check my breathing. Then I sat back down in my chair, and we started talking about my labs. Okay my creatnine has been flucuating (going up and down) and my antibody level came up a little bit. Well, she got concerned and went to talk to my doctor. I was like son of a nutcracker. No don't talk to him. He will have me come down to Madison like right away. But that wasn't the case. She said that they wanted be down to Madison within the week to do a kidney biopsy. I should have taken that as a clue that my doctor wasn't freaking out, so I shouldn't. Umm that wasn't the case in my head. My train of thought always go to the worst.

So I went to talk the lady that was going to schedule my biopsy. I picked the date for Friday of last week obviously. So I talked to my dad when I got back from my appointment. He told me that he is not able to take me down there. He will not be able to take off since most of the guys down at his work took off for gun hunting. So I put a call into my aunt Jill to see if she would be able to take me down there. And low and behold she was able to take me.

Now it is friday! The night before my biopsy I was all jittery and nervous at Ryan's. Pretty close to tears when I would talk to Ryan about this. I was freaking out. But he kept telling me that they won't keep me down there, that it is only antibodies causing all this chaos. And he was right. Man is he smart. I only got about 3-4 hours of sleep the night before. I had to wake up at 4:30 am to get myself ready. My aunt came over at 5 to pick me up. Then we took the 2 hr and 15 minutes trip down there. I normally fall asleep on the way down there, this time I didn't. Because I knew she didn't quite were she was going. I got us there with directions, and I got my labs and then went downstairs to clinic to get checked in. Then we were in the clinic for like 8 hours at least. Man that sucks. It was so boring. Then I got wheeled into the Biopsy Room, with my aunt in tow. Kidney has good blood flow (Pfew on that), and then my doctor came in. Another sign I should have relaxed more. He was telling me that he thinks it is just my antibodies causing all this. He was going over all the options that we can do, if that is the case. I should have believed him. But I think with him saying that, I relaxed or my relaxtion had to do with the sedation they gave me. Man it knocked me out afterwards. But only for a freaking hour. I think I kinda remember my aunt telling me that she was going to get lunch. I don't know. I woke up to Roseanne's voice on the tv. I can't get off the bed or move too much for 4 hours. Remote was over by my aunt's chair. I think. Anyway's I woke up thinking were did my aunt go. Did she go wandering?

I should have known better about her wandering. She has never been down there before. She would have gotten lost. So the first hour I had to lay literally flat with vitals getting checked ever 15. Then after the first hour my head got propped up and they brought in a bag lunch. Sorry I have to say this Madison! Your food is normally AMZING! But your bag lunches SUCK big time! I mean you get raw veggies (always freaking frozen) my radishes had ice chips in them and wow were they cold on my warm teeth, a cup of honey dew, and a turkey sandwich on wheat bread. Okay I love turkey, but not Madison's turkey. I love thin cut turkey. They have thick cut, tasteless. Adding mayo or mustard still makes it suck. So I passed on that one. I had a bottle of water. BIG MISTAKE on the water. Remember I can't get off the bed for 4 hours. Hahaha! I was asked if I have abdominal pain. I said only because I have to pee, other than that nope. So 4 hours passed by slowly, especially the last hour. That was the longest hour ever. The minute I got permission to get up, I sat up. Let my body acclomate (sp?) to sitting up. Then I got up slowly. I walked out into the hallway. I should have had a camera. The nurses desk is right there. There jaws dropped. I said I am not escaping. I have no shoes on. They said we aren't worried about that your aunt is your ride and she won't let you escape, but are you abel to get up. I said yes, I am passed 4 hours. They said okay. So relief came. I was like AHHHHHHH!
Then we waited for the results to come back around 4 or so. The doctor said there is no change from the last biopsy in March. It is still Acute Mediated Antibody Rejection. You probably are like HUH? Okay what that means is my antibodies are going after the kidney to try to kill it off. So they have to combat that with giving me high dose of steriods, my Iv treatment (that I was doing once a month now I do it once a week for one month), re-evaluate at clinic in January in GB, and see how my antibody level is. If it didn't come down, then we will be doing the Iv medication of Retuximeb(i think that is spelled right). That helps kill off some the antibodies to save the kidney. Which means we can do that outpatient also. And then maybe do Plasmapheresis also to help with that also. But that is if the number doesn't come down. Only if it comes up.

So I got my high dose of prednisone Iv form before I was discharged. Then the Tx (transplant) Coordinator who is taking the place of my coordinator since she is off on Friday's. She went over the prednisone taper at home, wrote me script for the pred, told me to get my red-tube sent in before my clinic visit. The red tube is the antibody level tube that gets mailed in. I plan on to that the week before I go to GB clinic so I don't forget to do it.

With me having the high doses of pred, I have to check blood sugar again. Which is okay. Another side effect of high dose pred is increased appetite. After I am done with the checking of my blood sugar. I plan to stay on the meal plan, or the Lifestyle plan along with Weight Watchers to help me lose weight. I only now, have soda when my blood sugar is low and I need it up. That helped me this morning. I was getting low. Well, I am home, feeling great, caught up on sleep last night. Can't wait to drive tomorrow to my Iv treatment, and feel more self suffcient. Gonig to check my blood sugar so I can eat lunch. Talk to all later! Have a wonderful Monday!

Jodes

Monday, November 9, 2009

Camp Luther Weekend!

Well, I can finally say that I have been to Camp Luther. It was so beautiful up there and quiet. I loved it. I have some pretty cool pics to share as well. But I completely forgot to take a picture of the Camp Luther sign. I know what kind of scrapbooker am I that I forgot to take that pic. I had good intentions to do it. But come Saturday when we were done with the "slave labor", I was too tired to even think about that. Yes I did say slave labor. See we only had to pay $25 for food for each of us. Our lodging was free. Which was pretty cool. We stayed for free as long as we did tasks that they wanted us to work on.

Okay first off we had 3 cabins. One was for the boys, one was for the girls, and the last one was for a family of 4. There were 3 boys in their cabin, 5 girls in ours, and 2 adults and 2 little one's under the age of 2 in the other cabin. By the time we left. I was pretty much familiar with everyone and was joking around with them. Friday night, that was not the case. I was quiet. Yes, can you believe quiet? I get that way when i don't know many people. I sit back, and listen. I talk when asked questions or talked to. Other than that, not like when we are church. Were I interject most of the time, and am bubbly. That was yesterday.

So Saturday after breakfast we all broke into groups. 3 girls cleaned the boys cabin (that was me, Ann, and Jean), the gutter cleaners were the boys (all 4 of them), and they also raked pine needles/leaves with 3 other girls. It took us about 2 hours to clean the boys cabin, I mean deep cleaining it. We could only do so much until finishing it up Sunday before we left. So it didn't get dirty all over again. Then we ate lunch at 1, then we all raked for about an hour. We were done by 3:15. Then Bonnie, me, and Benjamin went into town to Three Lakes to a winery. Everyone else was supposed to follow, but ditched us. Party poopers. So the three of us, and a friend of Bonnie's who came up to Three Lakes from Antigo joined us in wine tasting. I am a wine lush now. ;) Okay not so much.

Yesterday we left around 2:15 to head back to big bad Appleton. We were so pooped in the car, that I requested in Antigo we stop and get ourselves some caffiene. So we did. I broke down and had a coke. I said screw it this weekend with my weight watchers points. I normally can do portion control. Well, that got shot in the dark. So this week is make up time. I need to get back on track. I am still drinking my water though. Okay, so we got back around 5 or 5:30. Very fun and beautiful. Enjoy the pics.


This is a bald eagle that flew right over the tree tops Saturday morning. Pretty Cool!


Picture of the lake by the beach.















































Hope you enjoyed these pictures. I also posted them on facebook also. Have a good night everyone! Hugs and kisses to all!
Jodes