Man being sick SUCKS!!

Okay I got sick last Friday night with this crappy cold. Last Saturday I went over to Ryan's and we spent some time with his co-worker that came over. Then I think we took a nap. Then Ryan and I ate some food, left by about 6p, to go to the Outagamie County Conservation Club's Haunted Hayride. It was fun. It was Ryan's first time there and he said he enjoyed himself.

On the way home after that, we went back to Ryan's were I stayed and hung out on his couch. He left and met up with his co-worker's, while I stayed at his place and rested. Sunday we went to church, then a co-worker came over and we watched the Packers beat the Lions. After the game, I slept for 2 hours. Then Ryan and I hung out relaxed together. Then he sent me home around 7:30p so I could come home and get sleep. So it has been a long week. Sunday night into Monday I lost my voice, with my dad and Ryan being over joyed for the silence. Haha nice, right? So now happy to say that my voice is back and I am feeling 100% better.

Today is still a lazy day for me. I am slowly getting my energy back. Just getting bored. Bored has to mean that I am feeling better. And now I have way too much time on my hands. Because I was looking at all my posts and mainly reading what I all wrote about the time my mom was in the hospital. I thought I was doing so well. I could think about her in the hospital, like remembering how her last minutes were, and not cry. Well, tonight I cried reading everything we went through. This sucks. I think I am done telling myself, or pressuring myself to be healed already. Cuz when I do that, water works comes. Then I have a crappy time.

So I am done. I will heal in time. Tomorrow is a boring day, not sure what is going to happen. And Sunday is church, Education hour, and then a youth board meeting. I want to go to early service so I can hear the choir sing. But I will not be singing with them. I am going to listen. Still don't have a steady voice. Talk to you all later! Have a lovely fall day!
J

Man it has been a while!

Let's see! What have i been up to since the church Brewer game? Hmmm! I have been dealing with my mom's death much better. I finally opened up more to Ryan about her final weeks here on earth in December. I can talk to him about it, and even cry in front of him. Something which I couldn't do before. See I was under the assumption that if I cried in front of him, he would no longer consider me strong in what I have been through. That he would look at his girlfriend and woman he loves as someone who is weak. Messed up right? Well, I thought that way for 8 years. Now a couple weeks ago I talked to him about that very thing. And he told me I was crazy to think that. Which I know now, I am. I should be able to tell him everything, I mean I consider him my best friend other than Tanya and a couple other girlfriends. I am better with my emotions now. I came up with a new slogan for me that Ryan totally loves.

I am rollercoaster of emotion. You never know what you are going to get.

He likes that one. I do to. I mean I am not totally in the acceptance stage yet, but entering into it slowly. It is hard. I have good days and bad. There are times when Ryan and I are just sitting there, and I push my emotions of that time down too much. And it just blows up in me. Tears start to roll, I burry them, and then I get pissy or touchy. So I am learning, as to is Ryan, to talk more about it. I can talk somedays about my mom without tearing up. Like now, I am not tearing up. I am fine.

But when the grave stone comes to her plot. That will be a hard day. I plan to go down there and place the vase of fake Lilacs and roses that we gave her in the nursing home. My dad told me that is one thing that we can put down there. Other than that, I really am fine.

Good days and bad days will always be there. But I know that she is in a happy place. Especially now that she has Patrick Swayze all to herself. She loves that man soo much it is ridiculous. She loved all of the movies he was in. She even thought he looked handsome when he got older. I didn't. But now honestly she is in heaven (sorry for the pun) having him up there.

I am still doing my Iv treatment once a month and it is going great. My labs are awesome, kidney working beautifully, health is good, and Ryan and I are still busier than ever. Some days busier than others. Man we need to slow down, but being busy is good. We don't get bored then. Well, off to bed. Until next time. I will try to post for frequent now. I kinda forgot about it. See you all on the flip-side.

Jodes

Brewer Game 2009!

So this past Friday Ryan and I went to watch the Brewers play like we have been doing the past 4-5 years. I don't remember. Someone comment and let me know how long it has been. Okay me maybe only 3-4 since one year I was in the hospital and they did a Chinese Fire drill with me on the phone. So I was there in spirit and on the phone talking to Ryan.

We now go to the game on a coach bus. So much nicer than when we drove ourselves. One, the bus gets a closer so not that far to walk. Second, we don't have to pay for parking. This year was fun. Ryan and I got a really cute picture taken together. I think we will be doing that everytime we go. It is really cute. So I will include that and some other awesome pics that I took. Yes I was playing with my new camera. I was trying to find out how to take closer pictures without getting closer. I know. The obvious one is close-up. Well, didn't realize I had that feature until I started playing with it. So I will use that now everytime we go to the game. Here are the pictures.

Enjoy the pictures!


Aww! Aren't we a cute cuple?


Brewer's Welcome! Good Shepherd Lutheran Church-Appleton


The racing Sausages!


Ready-Set-Go! Go Racing Sausages Klements!


Seabaugh family candid pictures! I have many more if you want them Bec!

Hope you enjoy all these pictures!

Jodes

Youth Room revamp!

Ryan and I, like the rest of the adults, at how AWESOME the youth room looks now. It looks so much bigger. Man what a difference it is with getting rid of some of the old stuff, and moving things around for a change. I know I said the scarry word CHANGE. Lutherans don't do change well. So we'll see how the congregation reacts to the change in the youth room. But in all honesty, it isn't their room. It is the youth's, and we are trying to get more kids to come. So hopefully this will help. We are doing this for them, so they can just enjoy it and spread the word that the room looks better now. Crossing fingers and toes that this works, amongst other things that we are doing.

Man a lot of sweat was shed tonight with rearranging and moving stuff out. The guys took out the desk, after us ladies cleaned it out and pitched a lot of old stuff. Then they tackled moving the furniture to make room to move the Foosball table, then they moved the TV over to the center of the wall, moved the pool table, and moved the air hockey table. In all honesty, it looks amazing. More seats, and the old ones went buh-bye. Don't want to give too much away. We want you all to see it for yourselves and let us know. It really does look like we have a bigger room now. I have to say pretty cool. Now just pray that when school starts or we have the gradn reopening, more youth will come and when they do. They will spread the word for even more to come. There is always hope. Our goal is for the adults that come, to not find a seat. Were we have to sit on the floor. Which would be awesome if that happened.

So Friday is the Brewer Game, Saturday watching my cousin's kids with Ryan, Sunday relaxing and going to church, Monday not sure, Tuesday not sure, and Wednesday is more CHANGE. But this time for the Youth Bulletin Board. Well, time for bed. Until next time. Night!

Jodes

This is something I am proud of that we did Monday evening. The trail is about 45 minutes long. I would say that is how much we walked. I swear we walked the whole freaking park. I only had to stop twice to catch my breath. Hills, big hills, kill me. I mean kill my leags. I was sweaty and stinky but felt good later. That is one of the reasons why I need a good pair of walking shoes. My feet kept sliding in the shoes I had on, and my arches killed really bad afterwards. But Ryan will be keeping it up by taking walks with me. I don't know what it is. I do better with walking when I have a partner, and also being at Plamann. I feel safer with Ryan. So nothing can happen to me. My grandma is so worried when I walk their alone. Here is also what I plan to find at Rogan's tomorrow. Or something close to it.



Talk to you all soon!
Jodes

This week has been fun!

Wednesday Ryan, Pastor Tim, Becky, Tracy, Ed, me, and the youth at GS went to Badger Sports Park. Man was that fun! I mini golfed, or as I call mini putt putt with Ryan, Kevin, and Taylor. We had a blast in our group. We just plainly had fun. Ryan got a Holie in One (picture to follow this entry), and me at the last hole won a free round of mini golf. Okay, actually in the beginning I had four tickets for the four of us. You would think when we were getting our golf clubs, that she would have taken all four. Umm no! That would have been way too easy for them to do. But I really am not complaining. At the end. I have 3 free rounds of mini golf. So we can use them next year when we go again.

Also, Wednesday my family from Texas came up for our family reunion on Saturday. Actually it is this whole weekend. Or as my dad says it started the moment they landed. That day they went to lunch in Green Bay, then my dad joined them at my aunt and uncles house that night. Last night was supper at The Stoneyard in Greenville. Their brand spanking new sports bar. They just recently opened like with in the last week. I have to say very good food, I had a fish sandwich and it was big, messy and good. They have Jose Cuervo Mararita's on Tap, pretty cool, and it is smoke free.

So tonight Ryan and I are either going to my grandma's for a camp fire with my family or going out with his co-workers. Who knows. He will tell me around 2:45 what is planned. Tomorrow we are heading up to Bowler, WI for my family reunion. I am looking forward to it. My brother and his wife are coming. He hasn't been up there ever. Since we started going up there for it. So that is cool. This year my dad, my immediate family is in charge of the meat. And we are also in charge of the meat for Christmas which is in our garage also. They rotate between all the siblings every year. Which is nice. So I will have pics from my reunion also. Enjoy the pictures of Ryan!


Ryan sinks a Hole in One Baby!


Picture two of him sinking a Hole in One! This one is better!

Jodes

Why do you get colds in the summer?

Can anyone answer that freaking question? I got a hold last Saturday, the day of my surprise party. I woke up feeling like major crap. Thank God I did feel that way, or I would have the bug to call Ryan about 3 or 4 when he was supposed to get back from "fishing". I think in the back of my head I new something was up. But I let it go so I would be surprised and make him happy.

So anyway's last week was litterally the week from hell. Monday I had to do labs at 7am, then leave with my dad at 9:30 to go to GB for my appointment with my transplant doc. Feeling like crap, coughing, not talking great (were you swear I would lose my voice if I keep talking), and also answer questions from my doc. He asked me how I am doing. I said other than this stupid cold, I am fine. Feeling great other than today. Everything going good. Then he asked my why my creatnine jumped up the week prior. I told him I drank too much soda and not enough water. I said that made me change things to drink one soda a day )at least) and more water. I told him that. And then his response was this. You shouldn't be drinking soda at all. My thought was like "What?" since when. They didn't say that when I was in class after my transplant. They just said not to over do it, and what soda you shouldn't drink because it dehydrates you. I have been really good so far. My goal is this. Drink one soda a day until I feel I don't need to do that or forget, then drink one soda a week until whenever, drink one soda a month, and then finally hopefully no soda drinking at all.

I have been drinking water, water with lemon, hot tea (since my throat hurts), iced tea, seltzer water, and Crystal Lite.

This week is a better week. I had my Iv treatment yesterday. Sitting in a chair for 4 1/2 hours with nothing to do, sucks big time. But it is for a good reason. I do it once a month so I can handle it. Now with my cold, I am feeling okay. I can't stop coughing. It is a dry cough, and it is giving me a headache, sore throat, and also making my stomach hurt. Oh, and my ears are still plugged. So better than last week though. I just want this over with soon. I hate coughing. It drives Ryan nuts when he trying to rest on his couch. But I can't help it. Well that is about it for now.
Talk to you all soon!

Love all!
Jodes