Pages done for my mom's scrapbook 2

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Pages done for my mom's Scrapbook

It goes black white black white. Just so you know! Enjoy! There will be one more post with my final page on it and it is a white page.


This is my 1st page


This is my 2nd page right behind 1


This is page 3


This is page 4 behind 3


This is page 5

Hope you liked these pages. There is more to come.
Jodes

My mom's scrapbook!

Okay, I am happy to report that I have four pages done already. I am so proud of myself and Ryan said "Jodie is so creative." Not sure if he was being serious or being a smart a$$. But I made him look at the pages done thus far, and he said "Wow!" No that was a smart a$$ comment.

But I am so proud of myself and can't wait to work on more pages. My cousin and aunt will be collaborating pages with me, ie helping to do some pages and doing what they want, on Friday when my cousin gets home from school. Then Ryan and I will be joining my cousin, aunt, and uncle to go to her high school to watch her basketball game and to also (mainly) watch my cousin perform in Colorguard. I can't wait. Ryan is acting like a man with this. His comment was "I don't like basketball." I was thinking then why in the hell did you go to the UWGB Men's Basketball game with the group from church. Ummm DUH! Right ladies? He will have fun. My aunt, uncle, and cousin really love Ryan. And he is practically family anyway's he is just not "offically" family yet.

Back to my mom's scrapbook. Becky I ran out of adhesive the kind you use. I was like damn it. I was just attaching a picture of my mom in her wedding dress and then ran out. Don't worry I am not out, I am just out of clear adhesive. So no more vellum right now. Crap! But I will make it work. Well, that is enough for now. Talk to you all know. I am off to start the dishes, finish them tomorrow, and then off to bed tonight.

Jodes

Weekend plans!

My plans for Saturday is this going ice fishing with Ryan being back before the bus leaves. And then going to Becky's to have them help me with my mom's scrap book. I can't wait. We will have a lot of fun then. I mean since the boy's are going to the UWGB Men's basketball game and we are doing a chick thing. And I agree with Becky and Jen it is a squeaky game. And they have squeaky feet. I don't understand basketball, but if Ryan remembers I might go with him next year. Not sure. See I have never been to a college basketball game or professional game. I have only been to high school games.

My plans for Sunday is going to church, going to bible study, and then just chilling out with my beloved. Driving each other nuts, which happens sometimes. I like having a day to just chill out and relax with Ryan. Maybe I can convince him to watch a movie or something. Who knows what we will do.

Well, that is about all. Right now we are spending soem time together since we haven't seen each other much this week. So that is what we are doing tonight. Well, I am going to get back to spending time with Ryan. Talk to you all on the flip side.

Jodes

Heat wave is coming!

Well, it is finally nice outside, but a little chill in the air. But there are no below zero temps, below zero wind chills. Nope. We are creeping ever so closely to the freezing temperature. Which will feel like a heat wave to us frozen Wisconsinites. I love winter, summer, fall, and spring. Call me a "Girl for all Seasons." I don't know what I would do if I didn't have my four seasons. The change of the seasons is so pretty. When the snow melts and the birds start coming alive and all the animals start to do their thing (ie get twitter patted from bambi). In the winter the snowfall that makes everything a sheet or blanket of white. Covering all the trees and everything is so pretty to me. Not the ice mind you. Damn ice! Will shed light on why I hate ice later. When flowers start to bloom, leaves turn colors and start to fall. I think I described all the seasons. Not sure I might have doubled up on one. Don't know. Summer is warm, not too warm hopefully and you can go swimming and stay up late. Since it doesn't get dark until like 10pm. Which is awesome.

Okay now onto why I hate or dispise ice. See I feel on the ice the day before my mom's funeral. So that has left a lasting memory in me that receiving lines suck big time. First off people don't move quick enough, they get caught up. Talking way too much when you have no damn idea who the heck they are. Then there is no chair to sit down, since you are completely and totally sore all over mind you. I didn't feel comfortable and myself until the funeral was over. And everyone left. Then we could sit on the pew in the entry way. Felt good to sit. Then we got to loading the plants, all the damn plants. After that we left. I changed into comfy clothes. Felt really good to get out of dressy clothes. My mom would have been proud of me. Then we could finally eat lunch. See I only had a nutragrain bar for breakfast that day at like 8 am. So I was starving by the time 1pm came around. Then the next night I went out to my garage with my slippers on, fell on my a$$. Didn't hurt myself though. Must have enough padding back there or didn't fall that hard. I was like "Damn it mom!" "Stop tripping me!" Which I swear she did the day before her funeral and after. My cousins agree with me as well. Ryan just looks at me like I am smoking something funky. I am not. Think about it though. I did. And now I am also like crap I can't get away with anything now. My mom will know and see everything I do. Crap! But all is good. Well, that is all for now. I better get moving so I can go to Barnes and Noble to meet Diane for our bible study. Talk to you all later!

Jodes

When will I feel like my old self?

Hmmm, that is the question that I have been asking myself since everything happened with my mom. I thought this when she was in the hospital, and then after she died. Wow, it is truly amazing how much I miss her. And miss talking to her. I miss her ticking me off, and her smart a$$ comments. She was a pistol and I miss that. I miss just hanging out with her as well. But my dad is having a harder time with it than I am. Which is to be expected. He was married to her for 34 years, had two kids, and now only has us left. He has told me many nights "what if we would have done the tracheotomy?" I tell him that we followed what mom wanted and that if she could talk she would have said the same thing. And there are times when he tells me that I have no clue what he is going through. I have gotten mad at that, and have told him this. I may not know what it is like to lose your better half, I don't, but I do know what it is like to lose a mom that I loved so much that there aren't enough words to describe it. He says I know, and then says the same damn comment again. I tell him that if he thinks he is the only one having a hard time with her lose, which he thinks sometimes, then he is dead wrong. Jeremy and I are having a hard time with our mom's loss. The only thing that is different with us than my dad, is we are in the word of God, and we stick by our decision. The one my mom said to all of us. Granted I had doubts after her death, about the "what if" questions. Then I just remembered what she was like in her last hour of life. And then that answers my question. So I also tell my dad that as well.

He only seems to have a harder time with her death when he is drinking. I have tried to give him the word of God, and thought that with having Pastor Tim and Pastor Marty at the hospital with us. He would get a change of heart, well nope. He is one of God's lost sheep. And I just don't know what to do. I don't know anymore I can say to him about this. I know that we all grieve in different ways, obviously. But he thinks that with him seeing me the way I am, that I am not having a hard time with her loss. I told him that I may not look like i miss her, but I do. I just have a different way of mourning. I don't like to cry in public, makes me feel weak. But if you would have seen me pre-super bowl. When they were interviewing one of the players on the Cardinals team, whose mom died. You would have seen me with tears in my eyes. That really hit home for me. Or if we see a sappy movie, with the youth or young adults, then I will have tears. Or just by what people say sometimes. But I am getting better with the crying thing. Trust me they are on the surface. It doesn't take much these days in church to make me cry. Okay, I needed talk about this. I will talk to you all real soon!

Jodes

PITTSBURGH STEELERS Super Bowl 43 Champions!!

All I can say is "Woot Woot!" And what a game. Holy crap I thought the Cards were going to pull out a victory, but nope. The Steel curtain came crashing down on the Cards. Okay, enough trash talk and sports talk. I have had my fill for now. I don't follow basketball, so don't care about the NCAA, Final Four or whatever they do. Don't care on bit. Football is my sport. And I ask stupid questions to Ryan just to tick him off. But today I asked logical smart questions. Like for instance, how many personal fouls can a player have before they are ejected (he said either 2 or 3 he isn't sure Tim how many?), what does XL stand for (40 i didn't know that until today), what is the difference between encrochment(sp?)-false start-i can't think of the third one (but they basically mean the same damn thing so why not call it one damn word?) Ryan said to that last response I had, he said just so I would ask a stupid question like that. Now that isn't a stupid. I can think of more stupid questions that, obviously. I do when I want to tick him off or get him going. ;) That is what women are for. Right?

I am so tired. I couldn't fall asleep last night until about midnight. And that totally threw off my sleep schedule. If I go to bed before midnight I can get up in the morning like at 8 and not be tired all day. Past midnight, crap I am draggin all day. I need caffiene to wake me up. Which I have been cutting back on. Per Ryan's request. That is part of my "Healthy Lifestyle" that I want. If I need a soda, I try to be very good and have one a day, today that got screwed up. I have more when I am tired. Then I try to only eat when I am hungry. That seems to be working. I read on an article about weight loss. And they asked skinny people how do you maintain you fgure. Well, they said I only eat when I am hungry. So that is what I am trying really hard to do. And eating more salads at lunch and dinner really helps. Oh, and if I don't have soda I drink seltzer water or sparkling water. I try to stay away from sparkling flavored water. That stuff has added sugar in it. And seltzer water has no calories, no sodium, no sugar, no nothing. Very good for you. And I am drinking now Caffeine Free soda. Since I can't drink Diet soda. I can't because it gives mea migraine for two straight days until it is out of my system. So I just avoid it all together. And Ryan wants me to cut out soda completely. Well, that needs to happen in baby steps. But I said I will try. He said okay. So far with cutting back on soda, drinking seltzer water, eating when hungry, and eating healthier I lost 6 lbs. Sweet. Ryan said he hasn't noticed. I have in my clothes. I look much better, sort of. I notice it though. Well, that is enough on that for now. This week I am starting back up with water aerobics. They will be back to normal hours. Woo! Hoo! Can't wait. Going to bed. I am flipping tired. Nighty night all!

Jodes